Feeling Like a Failure (Mondays Finish the Story)

I have to admit April was a bit nutty between the A-ZChallenge (which I, sadly, did not complete),  Spring holidays at the beginning and a bout of Vertigo that had me down for a couple days – followed by attempts at catching up with household/family/home-office related chores (HA!)…  

When I saw this week’s photo prompt and the “starting words” I knew I had to do something.  Especially considering that “contemplating my life” (and finding it a dismal failure) is just what I’ve been dealing with the past couple days. 

Here goes:

Arriving at the beach, she reflected on her life. Tears streamed, unchecked, down her face as she thought about the failures in her life.  It seemed all there had been was failures.  She had nothing to show for her 50+ years.  No career.  No bragging rights to being PTO Mom of the year or Volunteer of the year.  Her marriage was in shambles her kids hardly talked to her.  She wondered, briefly, if life was even worth the fight anymore.  Perhaps her mom had the right idea taking her own life not far from that very spot

Then a voice inside her head, so real she searched around for it, “Don’t do what I did.  Don’t make the same mistake.  Forever truly is forever…  There’s no going back, No tomorrow, No “things getting better”.”

Giving her head a shake, Trish found herself sitting on a large rock her arms hugging her knees, her face buried in against her leg.  Tears fell harder till there was no more tears left.

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16 thoughts on “Feeling Like a Failure (Mondays Finish the Story)

  1. I have always heard that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem and I think that is what your story says. Sometimes we have to look for the rainbows at the end of every storm. Wonderful and thought provoking story.

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